By the end of the week, it’s easy to ignore the nudging whisper my creative spirit sends to my fingers. “You haven’t used your powers,” she echoes, “to use your words for something other than emails.”
My energy gets absorbed into the little keys for things demanding attention all week long. Any extra, left-over effort wonders how to type or draft or craft to contribute during this time. Many attempts to focus on the good feel aimless – like little helicopters that fall from maple leaves in autumn. I keep throwing the whirls into the air and they spin and spin. No matter how many times I throw them up, they fall and continue to land at my feet, just like last time.
Will the cadence of my pushing fingers stringing words together echo out beyond this tiny home office? Will one whirly-gig plant catch wind and travel beyond my back yard?
I didn’t write last week because I felt I had nothing much to report.
Writer Mari Andrew reminded me, in an Instagram featured interview, how lucky I am for this statement to be true. Nothing to report means my people are healthy, we’re employed, we’re spending our days on Zoom meetings and wondering when we can venture out.
Nothing to report means we’re a little bored.
What a privilege it is to be a little bored.
I take a deep breath and lion’s breath away the urge to type CNN.com into my browser because I know the world isn’t in such a state.
There’s too much to report.
Brave journalists continue to unpack the truth and challenge the lies or contradictions we’re being fed. Asinine politicians keep making horrific decisions leaving us every-day contributors in a constant state of worry.
Once again it feels a bit self-indulgent to be focusing on the small things, when the big things the world reports are so-damn-heavy.
With nothing to report here and lots to report out there, I wonder what chemical reaction can occur when we mix ordinary gratitude with catastrophic loss and the magnitude of complex decision making.
How will the flakes of salt I’ve sprinkled on home-grown tomatoes influence the healing of the sick, or change minds of stubborn folks stuck in their individualistic, out-dated methodologies? I’m not sure.
Can the aromatics of fresh pizza dough encourage billionaires to use their resources to alleviate suffering? Unlikely.
I do believe, however, when we choose to seek the beautiful, we raise the energy within our little spaces. When we lift the watering can once more or lick the chocolate from the spoon, we challenge the darkness with just a little bit of light.
Every decision we make has the ability to influence another; yes, even in this Groundhog Day like existence.
While the essential workers scrub and treat and heal and feed, I’ll muster a bit of battery juice into my tired fingers. We must remember to report the good.
The smell of crisp edges of a homemade waffle.
The crunch of hiking boots on a sandy mountain trail.
The smears of tears left on cheeks when it all feels like too much. THIS IS TOO MUCH.
A handprint left behind on a window wave.
A sunset captured in a smart phone camera.
Episodes of Downton Abbey previously unwatched.
Pages of cookbooks splattered with oil.
Laughter at inside jokes.
If we don’t report the good stuff, the bad stuff wins. If the extraordinary boring things go unnoticed, we give too much weight to the dark.
Go on … start a chemical reaction. Make some wind. Blow your good whirly-gig seeds all over the place.
If you believe in the pursuit of beautiful things, have ever come back from a set back in life, or hold firmly to the belief that we can all be kind to one another, invest in this on-going project.
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