I’ve been at this awhile now – this seeking beautiful things in August.
I typed peaches into my search browser on this site and the first hit is a post from 2015.
I’ve observed the sights and smells of summer before.
I’ve been moved by the bounty appearing on my counter tops – harvested fresh from farmers fields nearby and tiny pots warming on my porch.
I wrote about the peach lady here and encounters with fresh produce here.
I’ve written about my gardens here and lessons from tomatoes here and my appreciation for nature and growth of flowers and trees and the promises of soil here.
It’s happened again. The days turned into months and with each sleep came seasons unfurling in my same lap – the one often longing for something different. As if repetition means stagnant and recurring inspiration means I’ve missed some big opportunity.
Sometimes I catch myself dreaming of other lives I could be living. An urban woman in black pencil skirt, taking the subway to a publishing house – her fancy heels tucked in an expensive black shoulder bag. The J-Crew dressed scholar with tiny-framed glasses burrowed in a dimly lit library while working on a masters degree in something world changing. A mother tending to toddlers with curls, wishing her hair was washed and her stretchy yoga pants were freshly laundered. The REI-outfitted adventurer with worn hiking boots and tales of sleeping in hostiles and fighting off flirtatious men in Europe.
Maybe some day those visions will come true.
For now, I lift up my head and turn the calendar page for here it is – August again – and I sit, still me, with clean hair up and my square-framed glasses I should be wearing buried in the trusty, worn Timbuktu bag resting behind the desk chair I used in college.
Yesterday, we went to the farmers market and picked a bag full of bright orange carrots, crisp green peppers, a cantaloupe, and stone-sized potatoes still grimy with dirt.
Today, we drove home on the busy highway and pulled over to visit a bright yellow awning with fruit the size of baseballs ready to be bought. I wrote a check and handed it to the teenage boy who only briefly nodded when I said I get excited to come get my peaches every year.
On Sunday, we went for a bike ride at dusk on the familiar trail near our house. Cool breezes from the river nearby lapped at my face as I peddled along, long grasses licking at my ankles.
The carrots and corn are still growing. Peaches wait to be picked.
I’ve got a pallet of luscious fruit wafting on my counter top begging to be doused in ice cream. Dusk still falls with purple and orange and the cool breeze waits to kiss my cheeks when I pass by on a bicycle.
Yes, I’ve been here and done these things before.
With all the chaos out there I’m reminded, in this moment, I don’t need anything more.
What a beautiful thing.
Loved this post… A reminder to be present to these gifts, gifts of the mundane, repetitious – the things “real” life is made of – tastes, sights and sounds, never exactly the same..
I know what you mean, thinking about other “lifes” you could have but then still you are happy and grateful for the one you have. I too want so much more in life but when I look around, I know that I am still happy where we are. Still, I strive for more and a legacy to leave behind for my kids. I strive for more because I know I can be more. Cathy Heller always says in her podcast that she believes the meaning of life isn’t “happiness” as we all seem to think it is, it’s “purpose.” This is true because when you can have purpose, then you are happy working on that purpose. Other people around the world say that they worked hard for a goal of “money” but when they get there, they find an emptiness, a hole enters their life because they completed that goal. But when they strive for a “purpose” they are constantly fulfilled by that purpose.