I’m trying to get in a gym routine. I met with a personal trainer – you get two free sessions when you sign up – and I now have a weight training card with exercises I’m supposed to do. Those cards sit still and wait for me in the filing cabinet under the stairs.
Lifting weights still intimidates me.
My comfort zone often places me on the elliptical, feet staying stationary while my legs and arms pump me towards imaginary miles while I watch shitty t.v. shows or worse.
When I go to the gym at 5:30 pm, ten t.v. screens flash with world news updates.
Horrible news flickers across the screens. Volcanoes erupting. Draughts happening. Teenagers arrested. Meth houses making babies sick. Politics – a circus. I channel the absurdity on these screens and pump my arms faster – if I run fast enough on a stationary machine, maybe all the madness will stop.
I’ve been at this looking for good thing long enough to know fixating on the fear and negative doesn’t help. It’s like me on that machine – all that energy exerted and in reality I haven’t gone anywhere.
Instead, a list of gratitude for the quiet, beautiful things.
Some weeks, it’s just that simple. For this week:
- Bourbon Milkshakes – yup that’s a thing – who needs a margarita on Cinco de Mayo when you can have something from this menu instead? The sound of ice cream slurping up a paper straw
- Hearing your recorded voice – I’m tickled that Hello Humans allowed me to record what I’ve learned in the last two years on this podcast – listen to the first few minutes
- Lilacs – they smell so amazing – I want to go on a sneaky lilac hunting adventure through the park and find extra sprigs to cut and stick in a mason jar. If you have extras – let me know
- Pink petals falling from blooming trees – they grace the sidewalk and make me feel like God is preparing where I walk like I’m a bride walking down the aisle
- Spring rain storms
- Food in the fridge — water flowing from my sink — the stove turns on with the press of a button
- Facetime – for phone calls with loved ones
- Taking risks – the worst that can happen is they ignore you – good news when they find out they aren’t, in fact ignoring you
- Flannel sheets
- Breezes coming in through the window as I fall asleep
What good and quiet things can you find? What do you do to drown out all the noise of the bad?